Don't Forget to Remember

Do you have a moment in life that you’ll never forget? How about something you were saved from? A car accident, a house fire, or a big mistake someone’s advice spared you from? How about the moment you went from once going to hell to now being redeemed and destined for Heaven? That would seem like a momentous occasion, a decision that determines the rest of your eternity.

Deuteronomy 8:2 says... “ And you shall remember that the Lord your God led you ALL the way these forty years in the wilderness, to humble you, and test you, to know what was in your heart, whether you would keep His commands or not.” It says He was there through everything, especially the part at which He rescues you from your life of sin. Seems like something we’d easily remember.

I recently heard a message that really challenged my point of view in relation to forgetting my past and moving forward in contrast to remembering what the Lord my God has done for me. They don’t seem in opposition to each other, but I was having a hard time with what to remember and what to forget. In my last year of healing, it’s been a revolutionary thought that changed my path. Through the Holy Spirit’s prodding, I had come to a place of fully confessing my sins both to God and those whom I had sinned against. It ushered in a season of Godly sorrow that I had never experienced. To say that it completely wrecked me is an understatement.

I spent years in bondage to sin. God did a tremendous thing and freed me from so many areas and has graced me with a blessed life I don’t deserve. I have every reason the world can give to remain in self-loathing and wallow in my wretchedness. However, I came to a point at which I had to choose to believe God could do what He says He can do. In 2 Corinthians 5:17 God says He will make me a new creation, in Isaiah 61:10 it says He clothes me in His robe of righteousness and John 8:36 declares me free and clean! It was such a fantastical idea, something unreal and unbelievable in my estimation. I knew my part and what I had done, and in my mind I deserved to remain in self-degradation.

Philippians 3:13 references “…forgetting those things which are behind and pressing on to the things which are ahead”, meaning that I leave my life of sin behind and become more like Christ. I struggled with my thought life and my terrible feelings. This verse seemed impossible. However, when I heard that message on not forgetting what God has done it really put things into perspective.

I am not supposed to forget. If I forget what He’s done for me, I will be right back where I was. If I don’t remember what I needed saving from in the first place, what’s the point of needing a Savior? I am not called to a life of living in sorrow and self-abasement, I am called to victorious living in the freedom that Christ gave me. I have to know and remember what that freedom is for! Galatians 5:1 is on my wall in my house, over my mantel. It is how I remember every day. It says: “Stand fast therefore in the liberty by which Christ has made us free, and do not be entangled again with a yoke of bondage.”

You don’t have to look far in scripture to see over and over again how different heroes in the faith experienced incredible acts of God, heard His audible voice, saw the Red Sea parted, slain giants, saw dead people raised and desperate illnesses healed and yet easily forgot what they had seen and experienced. They either went back to the very bondage that God delivered them from or set off with alarming speed towards the next area of bondage. They were just like us, seeing awe-inspiring acts of God and yet the very next day forgetting to live how they were called because of what God did for them.

So how do you remember without wallowing in regrets? Through gratitude. It is a deliberate action to remain in freedom and not forget. I have to remember the desperate life I was saved from with a visual of the Cross around it. I have to deliberately choose to see those past sins and regrets nailed to the Cross. It is the very reason I need a Savior.

How dare I ever forget why Christ died on the Cross for me and what He set me free from! I choose to live my life in the freedom God gifted me and I aim to express my gratitude for His grace and mercy He has so richly and extravagantly bestowed on me.               

New adventure- Freedom!

Every one of us has a story to tell. We come with our childhood's and past tales, mistakes and hopes for the future. I am no different. I believe my story has God's fingerprints and providence all over it. He has done such amazing things for me, such extravagant acts of grace that I don't deserve, that I cannot help but speak about them.

I spent a significant amount of time writing what I thought was my story this last year. I feel very passionate about it and have realized along the way of writing, that there are so many themes to share and ways I can encourage others. This is the purpose of this new blog. 

I want to be able to shout form the roof tops what God's done, and yet feel so scared sometimes, because the things He's done for me mostly resemble rescuing, which means I needed rescuing. Speaking about it clearly praises God for who He is and puts me squarely where I belong....not on the throne.

Saved from my old dead self and transformed into a new creation in Christ is not the only saving I'm talking about. I'm talking about finding myself in bondage so strong, while being a born-again believer, that it took a miraculous act of rescuing.

I have spent the last year literally secluded in a place of healing and restoration. It had to be a boot-camp, extreme kind of reprogramming done by none other than my Savior. My days have been spent soaking in God's Word, listening to sermon's and speakers, being ministered to by my favorite worship music, memorizing scripture and learning how to pray better. 

A few of the things I have learned that I cannot wait to share is how to find freedom in Christ, how to find victory over your thoughts and be transformed, how to set yourself apart and be a light in a dark world, victory over insecurity, how to fight for your marriage, how to become a Godly wife, how to teach your children, (especially your daughter's), that the Word of God is absolute truth in a relative world, how to raise your kids to be warriors for Christ and live victoriously.

Those are just a few of the tremendous things that God has taught me this past year. I will be the first to tell you that I have learned it, but cannot live it alone. I cannot achieve it alone. By God's power alone, by grace alone. My part is surrender. It's His job and no can do it better.

God did not do this thing for me to be silent about it, He has made that abundantly clear to me. I long to be used, I long for Him to turn my mess into His message. I long for others to find their God given purpose and to live free.

My goal is that God be praised and others be blessed. Come and do Your thing that only You can do Lord Jesus.